Raynu

I'd say life is getting to be a little too much here lately. All of the days are blending together and I'm pretty much on autopilot these days. Tomorrow, it'll be 2 months since my mom died - and i still fall apart every single day. Life is so much different. The world just isn't the same. For a while, I thought I could get through the motions of grief by loving and maintaining myself and my daily life. Just taking extra good care of myself and things in my life, making sure everything is squared away... Now I just feel stuck. I don't know how to move on with my life or where even to go from here.  I can't believe I'm an orphan before the age of 30...

yea, severe mommy issues. Ramirez took a few good bumps to the head and some suggest that creates violent killers as well...

This is my Harley girl

i dont fear dying. i need the rest. life has been very difficult for me and i am tired. however, i have this amazing child i'm raising that i owe every part of my being to.. so i have some shit to accomplish before i can just be okay with resting.

i dont think its a big deal either way. i use to be with someone who threw temper tantrums every time i got a tattoo. it was ridiculous.

well, that would be a relief. both of my parents would still be alive. fuck all that other shit, tbh

well we have that information. but not every abused individual who grew up with no moral compass turns into a serial killer.  do you think some of them are maybe born that way? another interesting note to add is that a lot of really fucked up killers suffered multiple good bumps to the head. for example, we have Chris Benoit... with CTE. 

just things that make you go.. "hmm..."

can we just talk about The Lucifer Effect...? what is it exactly that makes a person like Richard Ramirez, Ed Kemper, or Ed Gein?

6 hours ago, Pete said:

Medicated smoothie??

marijuana smoothie, Pete 😁

medicated smoothies 😈

whoa

well, not gonna lie. it was the most toxic relationship i ever had. it was 3 years of traumatic bullshit. hes currently incarcerated. its a whole lifetime movie, dude. 

theres is also a hydro-cremation option. that ones pretty cool. no pun intended..

19 hours ago, Pete said:

Im not sure if you guys have read or heard about human composting funeral homes. Human composting also known as natural organic reduction. Once you die, your corpse in placed in a vessel that mixed with wood chips, straw, alfafa,  and other bacteria that love to eat on the organic matter 😬

Seattle is the first in the US to have this kind of burial anyway.

How do you feel about this? Would you ever choose this type of funeral either for yourself or for loved ones?

id consider it. its better than going in the ground and floating in water for the remainder of my decomposition. before covid interrupted my plans, i was studying to be a funeral director. one of the secrets you learn is there is no such thing as an air tight or sealed casket. its just a marketing ploy to sell. so regardless, if you are being buried - your casket is going to fill with water.

We all float down there...

hell yeah! thanks! ❤️

i would LOVE to own a hearse

Resident Evil 8: Village is about to drop in May...

So, whatdduya think? I'm always excited for a new RE game, regardless. . .  

A friend sent me a link to a free online course (PredictionX: Omens, Oracles & Prophecies) because in my spare time, I love to do a lot of esoteric shit. So, I explored Harvard's hefty list of all of the online classes that are free to audit. 

So, like, you can take the entire course complete with a final exam.

However, if you want the certification, you'll have to pay a fee for that. And from what I can gather, that's different for each class.

I'm just passing this info along because I'm sure there's someone who will be interested. Here's the link:

https://online-learning.harvard.edu/catalog?keywords=&paid%5B1%5D=1&max_price=&start_date_range%5Bmin%5D%

but back to the sleep paralysis and the shadow figures... what do you think the shadow figures are?

On 1/23/2021 at 1:15 PM, Pete said:

Ive never heard anything about blood types..thats scary cause i dont even know my blood type

 

People also say certain blood type is less susceptible to COVID19

yep, the O's. if youre into rabbit holes, look into the A-, B-, AB-, and O- groups and how theyre different from the positives. theres a theory that they evolved separately from the other group in various ways, etc.

I'm O neg.  so i think i had covid during the entire month of december but i was never approved for a test because i never had a fever, never lost my taste, and my symptoms werent really bad with the most popular red flags.  i just had alot of mucous going on. and it seemed to last forever. i think i just got my voice back to normal.

expanding on this topic for the O's ..specifically RH negative O's, some of them are resistant to HIV as well due to mutations in their CD4 cells (which the HIV virus uses to hijack and replicate)

these are just some things ive come across, for the sake of entertainment. take with a grain of salt.

Hannibal is fantastic.... just, *chefs kiss*

4 minutes ago, GothicChurro said:

My name is Ren, I am a full time student getting a degree for graphic design who is also a writer. i am in works of getting my business license for my comicbook group Raven Ultra Comics. i like anime and playing video games in my free time i enjoy building and painting model kits. I am also a twitch streamer you can follow me under gothicchurro. 

fuck yea, welcome Churro !!

😄

 happy to be here, my dude 🙂

My name is Raynu, I'm 29. i live in the eastern US. I'm an aspiring funeral director - but covid interrupted my plans.... 

I'm pretty deep into the occult and i collect odd things like dirt from specific places, railroad spikes, rocks, wood from lightening struck trees. 

i have severe adult ADD and i know a whole bunch of really cool useless facts.

lets be friends

Just now, Pete said:

Once is enough!  You wouldn't want to have more!

i heard sleep paralysis was more common in people with RH negative blood. as with most abduction stories as well. fair warning, im a weirdoooo